Showing posts from January, 2017

Love is the answer

I'm sitting here staring at my computer screen while my 2 youngest nap in my bed at the other side of the room. The events of the last year have been legitimized today and I'm truly at a loss. I don't consider myself political or religious. My personality tends to allow those around me to express themselves openly and freely with no judgement as along as its respectful. I have listened to people that I respect and love voice their frustration with the state of our country and have seen them hope that this big change that is happening will change the course of our future positively. I cant imagine a scenario in which this will come true.

Here's what I do know. I know that hate breeds hate. I know that when we see our leaders conduct themselves without regard for others, some people feel like that gives them the ok to do the same. I personally have friends that since the night of the election have been treated in ways that they haven't been treated in years if at al…

Mom Guilt

You know those people who feel guilty about everything? What they did or didn't do, who they upset, how many hours their kids spent watching tv today... I'm not one of them. I'm not saying this because I feel like I'm better than people who feel guilt, I'm saying it because it's true. I'm not sure if I've always been this way, but for as long as I can remember, I've always accepted that the choices I have made, I've made for a reason and I grew from each of them no matter how painful the growth.

When I was about 12 and my friends around me started making interesting decisions about things like boys, school, drugs I had this weird epiphany for someone my age. I decided that I was going to live my life in a way, that when my children asked me questions about my life, I would always feel comfortable answering them honestly. Strange thought for a 12 year old? Maybe, but I've always been a little different. I never related to anyone my own age, …

Eudora's Birth Story

I didn't write a birth story for any of my older daughters for the simple fact that it just never occurred to me to do so. I'm an old lady in terms of social media, so when I started reading other women's stories I was so inspired! So here it is! This is our story!

Eudora was due February 5th. All of my daughters went past their due dates, so when hers rolled around I really didn't take to much notice! Don't get me wrong I was DONE being pregnant! It was my 6th time and I was tired and unbelievably sore! I was so thankful to have the kindest, most gentle holistic chiropractor to help keep my body healthy or I don't know how I would have held up. The week leading up to her birth I had a couple of times in the middle of the night that I would wake up to consistent contractions only for them to go away an hour or so later. 
The evening of The 8th was different. Aurelia was still sleeping with us and when we all went to bed around 9 her and I were wide awake. My h…

Nevara's Story

I've thought about writing Nev's story hundreds of times. People always have so many questions about her adoption, both loving and inappropriate. Before I say anything I'd like to share part of how I feel with you. Nevara is not lucky to have us, it is the other way around. Lucky would have been that the woman that gave birth to her could have cared for her and given her the life that she was entitled to. Nevara's misfortune lead to me being lucky enough to be her Mom. When people tell me how lucky she is, I know it comes from a good place so I typically just reply that I'm the lucky one and leave it there. Nevara's story, like many, is one of love and heart break. You see to be adopted, you must first be given up...

Ever since I can remember I have wanted to adopt. We had always intended on having 3 kids than adopting. Well fast forward winding up pregnant with #4 and I figured my dreams were dashed. Years passed and I couldn't shake my feeling that someo…

7 girls?!?!

Welcome to my first post! As you've probably figured out, I'm a girl mom! 7 to be exact! I got married at the young age of 18. We had only been dating for 4 months, but I knew right away that I wanted to marry the big guy! I never thought about kids and when my husband mentioned he wanted 4, I was in! A couple weeks before our 1st Anniversary, we welcomed our 1st daughter! We had our first 4 daughters in under 5 years! Honestly I think I must have mentally blocked out those early years, because I don't remember it being that bad:) My husband was done at that point and perfectly content to focus on our 4 girls. I on the other hand felt like someone one missing

4 years later after many years of not so gentle nudging from me, we started the adoption journey! After about a year our beautiful 5th daughter was born! I'll save her story for another post, but let me just say that adoption is the best thing I have ever done! 4 years later we started the adoption process again …